life loved

2008-09-28T16:23:00.000-07:00

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Inspiration

2008-09-20T22:43:00.000-07:00

I just arrived home from a three day trip/ school related trip for the completion of Related Learning Experience. It was a delivery room experience at a local Regional Hospital here in the Philippines.
Facility wise, quiet ok, They observed sterility though not that complete instruments used due to lack of supplies. Resourceful enough they used wrappers of sterile gloves as sterile lining and only uses two forceps and a scissors for cutting the umbilical cord with additional tissue forcep for first time mommies.
There are seven delivery table and all of them are alternately used due to number of babies to be delivered.
Giving birth is indeed not that easy like having a difficult bowel movement. A good amount of holding breathe is required to push the baby out and a sum amount of encouragement and self help from the mommy to finally welcome the little angels.
We were lucky to witness delivery of twins, Unfortunately the first of the twin, baby girl came out with a cleft palate, the next one was a boy but obviously small and weak. They were immediately admitted to NICU for further management.
We also witnessed the delivery of a poor 6 moths male still birth. he looks so fragile that when they touched their skin its like a wet tissue slowly disintegrating. His eyes are slightly opened, he looks like an alien balloon, Soft and water filled. He is so tiny that i cant dare look at his face while tearing my heart apart.
It was a experience I'll cherish for the rest of my life. It help me thought of the health care facilities in our country, the sarifices ad love of the mothers to us, the responsibility of being a mother and the wonders of life.

2008-09-07T04:53:00.000-07:00

As I was surfing the net I was really glad to encounter a site where I can really feel I am home, surrounded by family. Its called www.merkadonetwork.com - site created by Filipino. It is socializing site like friendster. Unlik other sites, I must say that www.merkadonetwork.com indeed stands out. It is site where I can say its super surfer friendly. The categories are well arranged. You can easily find what your looking for, friends, uploading, profile and many more.The site has money earning feature too. Simply post and you'll earn money or credit. The polls and forum are great too and also if you have inquiries about the site the administrator replies immediately which is great.

Visit the site and you'll experiences a great satisfaction.

thesis

2008-08-24T22:25:00.000-07:00

im working on my thesis right now..
im pressured
I would have enjoyed doing this of it was an experimental one
If not only requirement for graduation
Help

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Lung cancer; late diagnosis

2008-06-19T00:55:00.000-07:00

January 2008 welcome me with inquiries, concern and responsibilities. Thi was the first year I didnt have the chance to welcome the year with my parents due to a worthy sacrifice. I stayed at my grandparents home to watch over my sick grand father.
October 8, 2007 was the last birthday we celebrated for my late grand father for his 84th birthday. It was a nice, well prepared and extravagant party. WE come up with a surprise video greeting from far away relatives, a phone call from his favorite US based daughter and the paarty was colored theme, GREEN. Everyone is present and gay but we never knew it was the last one.
Come NOvember 2008 my lolo as we address grandfather the filipino way, started to felt weak. he sleeps more and eats less which was unusual cause he used to have a daily walking within our village every morning and afternoon and watched over his small convenience store all day. He used to eat little but it became worst that he wont even eat a single spoonful of meal.WE used different strategies to forced him to eat. WE bought anything that he and we think he would eat but all those efforts were nothing, he barely finish a piece of sliced bread.
One day we noticed that the symmety of his eyes changed a bit. His left eye became chinky. We consulted the doctor and we were referred to neurologist since he had a mild stroke wich was surprising were he was not hypertensive then. Almost every three days it has become a practice to check his Blood pressure after checking his wifes HYpertensive BP and lolo's usual BP was 100/70mmhg.After the consultation he was given grendis 10 mg daily for maintenance aas well as cholesterol level checked.
Laate November he became weaker, he complained of back ache and cough. Since his family doctor was out of the country we consulted another cardio-internal med doctor.He had ECG and showed good tracings.No medication given
Days passed we noticed a lump in his left lower aabdominal area. THe physician ordered an abdominal xray. THe doctor said it was an hernia attached to the muscle wall and was advised to wear binder and avoid lifting heavy loads. No other medications were given.ultrasound result also showed minimal kidney stones bt it was too littles that it may pose a problem.
DEcember came when we noticed his cough aged for almost twoo weeks and he became more weak. hHe is veery anorexic and can barely stand alone. we're afraid his P. TUberculosis has haunted again.we again consulted the doctor and asked for interpretation of his CHest X ray. Although his results showed scares lungs from ten yeas ago tretment, still the doctor and the family is doubtful if it is PTB since ten years ago he completed the medication and showed positive result and was clered from it. tTHe doctor ordered sputum afb and PPD. Two sets of AFB sputum results showed a negative. as well as the PPD but still the doctor didnt cleared him from the possible PTB.It was very painful to advise my relative especially the young ones t avoid close contact since we are afraid to get the PTB as well. WE were careful of his secretions that has conme cccontact wit my lolo and everybody was advised to wear mask. DEcember christmas pary he was the SAnta skin and bone version wearing mask on a wheelchair. Its painful to witness his deteriortaion with out any clear diagnosis.We dont know what to do.
JAnuary 1 2008 we noticed he had a black tarry stool with accompanying shortness of breath and was afraid his gastric ulcer may haunted again. he was admitted to a local hospital and was managed with 2 prbc transfused, given maalox,and was hooked to Oxygen at 2L per minnutes.his blacktarry stool didnt happen again since the last one and we refused colomoscopy. After four days we were discharge. Still the PTB scare is present and the doctor said he cant give anything since his too weak to handle the combined drug therapy.AT home we had set up oxygenenation and at same rate but he can tolerate without o2 when not asleep.
His difficulty in breathing persiste that after two days from the discharge we rushed him to Emergency. HE was admitted due to dyspnea and cbc results he has very high white blood cells count. Luckily our family doctor finally came and reffered us to a blood specialist. he was given medication. As the familydoctor reviewed our healt history was ouhe asked for the chast xray result reading of the past doctor and was doubtful aabout it and we were referredd to a pulmonologist for second opinion to read his Chest xray result. I was lucky to read the result to and as I saw metastasis i knew then it was big C but kept silent about it from my family... Mean while he was given nebulizations of salbutamol and compalined of severe back pain, chest pain aand O2 at 5l/min. He would ccomplain its too hot in the room when the aircon is in full blast and everyone is almost freezing.he would no longer eat and barely talks. he is vry very weak then. When the scond opinion reading was forwarded to the family doctor, she ordered a cat SCan. and it verified he has osteo metastasis, 4th and 6th rib fracture, liver, lymph nodes and pleuritic CANCER. thE DOCTOR SAID its stage 3 and with his condition 6 months will be too long.
Everybody torned.we decided to dischrge since there is no treatment available fr his condition only pallative one with his old age we barely accepted it was CANcer.
AT home it was more difficult to see him in pain, shouting and cying in pain, begging us to give him nebulizations or increase his oxygen.round the clock everbody is watching over him. NO massage can relieve him and he wont eat. He cant talk, swallow and barely move. HE only utter a word when he wanted to pee.his foodwas osteorized and was administrated per syringe. with high hopes we consulted an alternatve herbal medicine doctor and he even gave us a week aftr seeing his condition.
January 24,2008 he came to rest after her daughter went home two weeks ago to serve him, after his confesion to a priest and after everybody is painfully ready to let go of him.

BSN 4h

2008-06-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

bSN 4h.... yahuuuu.. congratz guts we made it this far..i know till grad na...

For tomorrows sked... JUne 10
di ko lam ang tym and rum but probabaly 7am and type c para sure tau...
pasenxa talaga... guys.....huhuh

Lets worko on to a better school year

Lets welcome our new classmates...

C yah .. God bless

PANATANG MAKABAYAN

2008-06-09T07:38:00.000-07:00

PANATANG MAKABAYAN

Iniibig ko ang Pilipinas

Ito ang aking lupang sinilangan

Ito ang tahanan ng aking lahi

Ako'y kanyang kinukupkop at tinutulungan

Upang maging malakas, maligaya at kapakipakinabang

Bilang ganti, diringgin ko ang payo ng aking mga magulang

Susundin ko ang mga tuntunin ng aking paaralan

Tutuparin ko ang mga tungkulin ng isang mamamayang makabayan at masunurin sa batas

Paglilingkuran ko ang aking bayan nang walang pag-iimbot at ng buong katapatan

Sisikapin kong maging isang tunay na pilipino

sa isip, sa salita, at sa gawa.

pedicure

2008-06-09T07:22:00.000-07:00

Just gone to unknown parlor we passed by BEFORE GoIN HOME.. I never planned to splurge on pedicure but I did without any hesitation... compulsive I must say...and now I have to pay for the decision made unplanned.
I usually dont have my pedi to untrusted ones but its too late now. I felt there's something wrong from the start and now I'm sufferin. I found I got wounded by the procedure..huhuhu
Lesson learned; It takes a while to trust with evaluation made and it should be well observed at all times, taking risks is always a new challenge worth fighting for..................

pinoy big brother

2008-06-08T02:50:00.000-07:00

Pinoy big brother is indeed a tv craze in the Philippines. It is undeniably one of the shows most filipinos watch out for every night. It has showcased the true Filipino living and indeed paved its way to global fab lane and to showcase Filipinos life and culture.
Last night it has ended meaningfully by the audience hailing E-jay as the teen big winner. The show was able to showcase the true essence of the show and has helped the viewers in choosing the worthy one.
I'm glad the viewers has chosen the best one. One who is deserving and humble.He is truly a man of good example to every young and every Filipino. An inspiration to all starving for survival.

louis vuitton

2008-06-04T03:18:00.000-07:00

all alone

2008-05-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

im all alone
im tough but scared
I'm tougher but im weak
Im the toughest but I'm broke

pbb

2008-05-25T19:29:00.000-07:00

dont like the new pbb today...
ive heard and read a lot of comments and it seems there has been favoritism around the house
can someone check on nikki's thyroid, its huge that it may pose a health problem.
beauty is not herself i guess, she speaks bad words all the time and she had made an alliance with nikki. and the ex priscilla. They are trying to make bad picture out of the teens whom i find the good ones. They are good in making up stories and trying to convince the public of what they think is good. Both of them are not good example to the viewers.
the younger generations which would picture what they've been doing as the right thing to do.
the teens left at kuya's house today are merely a quarter of what filipino teens are.
beauty and nikki are worth evicted

David archuleta

2008-05-25T18:20:00.000-07:00

oh its so sad he lost the game....
i find him deserving of the fame
he has shown a bloody desire to win and a heart to fight...
more over a voice worth a melody to every music
he has fought well
and i hope this is just the beginning
not all winners get to achieve the real triumph

gucci/lv bags

2008-04-25T01:41:00.001-07:00

who wants to buy, genuine ones only

oh my rice

2008-04-25T01:26:00.000-07:00

Even though WE are monthly supplied by rice from are rice farm still we are part of the country's crisis right now and we ought to yake part of it.
Since rice price hike started my family and I opted to an economical way to more.
WE only cook rice once in a day and that will sereve the rest of the three meals.
We make sure that we cook justenough for the consumption.
Funny as the best way to maintain reducing diet since we would be force to eat less if there is only few left in our last meal every dinner time.heheheh
I just realized how valuable every piec of rice.
In this saving technique we have saved lg consumption too.

2008-03-25T02:37:00.000-07:00

mah tummy aches

responsible

2008-03-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

please stop makin a mess
cause i don't want any distress
im tryin hard here
please give me some beer
before i cry and breakdown
in this lonely town

Be responsible please
and do it with ease
think of your peers
before you'll here
our poor spoiled tears

Answered prayer

2008-03-14T01:07:00.000-07:00

Almost three years ago

I brought this heavy cargo

Gave me reason to think

reflect and blink

My life in the past

as well as the future crust

I was weak and torn

hoping then this was not born

A challenge to ponder

success to wonder

I tried to be tough

and forced to laugh

Mentioned in every prayer

for me to be tougher

To find the light

and lead the fight

I am not a losser

always a fighter

paid my dues

in evry drop of dew

I was score blind

Winning is the only thing in mind

expected nothing

Life per se is everything

I waited

I prayed

I hoped

and cried

Ready for the decision

without any hesitation

I fought well, I must say

now back home happy and gay

time to shine

2008-03-14T00:51:00.001-07:00

End of the tunnel is near

Applause is all I can hear

forget all the unforgettable

and start aiming for the untouchable

Hard work, well paid

with GOD as your aid

He will open doors

just choose your beloved course

Showcase your inner strength

with credits length

Believe in yourself

Face others self

Journey well planned

from up above

wait and you'll see

wonderfull story to thee

peace not war

2008-03-09T00:44:00.000-08:00

for english paki memorize...pips..tnx

PEACE NOT WAR

Boom! Blood, Flesh,
struggle and fear…
surrounding in the atmosphere
if one us sulky, one is scourned
if one is not a noble,
one is a peasant
there are drugs, abuses, hex & injustice
and the only thing that rules the earth is immorality

sssshhhh….. silence!
For the end may come
Voices are not made to speak the truth, but to shout and scream
Eyes are not made to see the reality,
But to hide the fact and cry and weep,
And the hands are not to reach out but to fight instead.
This is not yet over.
This is chaos.
This is what we call WAR!

It was a day of infamine,
Last September 11, 2001
When an airplane crashed its way into human life.
The United States of America’s world trade center,
Shattered! BOOM!
Tranquility and harmony was lost.
Roaming outside, BOOM!
Their lives were gone in just a blink of an eye
Mother’s died, Father’s vanished and brother’s suffered
Leaving no more but distress and pieces of mind and soul.
Guess what the cause is?
TERRORISM!
Brought by the power of in despicable greed
This is the beginning of the 3rd world was or this is the featured prophecy of Nostradamus?
God forbid though in this world
Where everyone is divided by war that separates the East and West through religion
Still remains in the world
And all living creatures that exist come from only one creator.
Terrorism, bloodshed, showering of bullets, bombs and missiles, biochemical weapons and death.
The story of why many human beings who were victimized and sought for moral righteousness.
Terrorism, start walking on ice where being die in a shivering cold and lose their lives.
(SHOUT) GET OUT OF MY LIFE!
I was there (3X) and shout.
Will there be an end? End (5x)
Look and you will see war
Flesh and rage haunting in the streets of US, UK , Afghanistan and now Iraq!Listen and you will hear a cry of the trouble of our fate.
So now eliminate all your senses,
Talk and you will not be heard,
For your rights are separate from the other (turf/surf)
Behold for the riches of life were broken.
Because we are dreamers.
STOP! This of hatred, hatred and hatred.
You who did cause for the voices of youth.
Youth who had the right to behold for the unity and progress for the future year.
It’s time to wake up, it’s time to do something, and the clock is ticking and time will be over and

10 selfishness
9 arrogance
8 hate
7 injustice
6 pride
5 war
4 kindness
3 respect
2 love and atlast
1 peace.

It is peace and wisdom we want.
Like a steel pad that serves us on its step
Leaving on its promise land
May that be all?
It needs to embrace the true virtue of peace…..love
Soldiers nay march towards the war,
Guns may kill millions of men,
Homes may be shattered,
And lives may be called in danger
But one thing is for sure,
This is not the end.
There is hope.
We, the youth lays here and wakes up in the advent of war process.
Save our future, join hands together,
For what we want is peace not war.

bsn R napud ang english classmates

2008-03-08T21:53:00.000-08:00

please memorize peace not war
practice @ 1pm-2:30pm tom& after res

osa sanctions deadline tom

Study meta

study patho

clearance

group 1 payment nyu...6 pesos each

tnx.Godbless

master roar

2008-03-08T18:07:00.000-08:00

Cerebral but airy
confident and bossy
strict and straight
he is Mr. Right

when good mood strikes
cracks jokes but no one laughs
bipolar in nature
everyday is a venture

beyond the line
in his time
left no choice
in his superior voice

well appreciated
his numerous inputs accounted
indeed helpful
to a forgetful

leading on his way
hoping he'll not go astray
who knows what awaits
the real king with his baits

history hunts
your stunts
please be careful
you might be regretful

justice

2008-03-08T07:09:00.000-08:00

MATH KEPT ME AWAKE

2008-03-08T06:56:00.000-08:00

wheee... simple problems but gave me problem

kept my dendrites workin tonight

still awake and concious

with GCS of 1 RLS of 15

hehehehehe

LOVE FOUND

2008-03-08T04:32:00.000-08:00

LOVE FOUND

Our Eyes met

two hearts connect

with warm welcome

to what may become

opening one self

coming out of my shell

gentle adjustments

in every moment

building trust

is a must

dont know to what extent

Oh! hurting, please prevent

I might get caught

to what I thought

that love is not worth fighting

and only best in dreaming

I'm afraid

It will make me feel empty

life's journey will be without certainty

Memoirs will then be braid

The clock matured

our relationship cured

grew sweeter

with our horizon bolder

thanks for the oppurtunity

in love found unity

in my new shell of security

everything is a real beauty

BSN 3R naman

2008-03-07T20:52:00.000-08:00

please submit your GACP sanction on monday....

so that ma work out ko na clearance...

tnx

please join RE-ECho today till tom at 5pm

150 lang bayad.....

study lagi , Thanx God bless

BSN 3R

2008-03-07T00:31:00.000-08:00

whole day
5 pages yellow paper bact to back....use red ink
30 pesos fine

for: Barquin, gregorio, sampaga

>>>>>>>.Longitudinal pancreatico jejunostomy Rouxen-y is the opening of the pancreatic duct and anastomosing it side to side in the jejunum.

Half day
3 pages yellow paper bact to back....use red ink
15 pesos fine

for: romel, temz, mykel, brian, joan, i, kakai, victor, john, babor, butay, lopez

>>>>>>>>>>>>Everytime we open our mouths, we expose ourselves- our weakness or our strength

Bsn 3R

please memorize peace not war

at least 3/4 of it...

Monday we'll try to read in unison with tonation

Kai, alen, temz, aika, joan, pung

please try to master the tonation kung anu maganda...

evry one please try to think of any choreography

aika, eina, or any "u" girls please try to canvass for our white top

for those who havent paid yet 6 pesos for Saligan rice

please hand in your payments

group1-alen/jiji

group 2- doy/temz

group 3-cleared...tnx

Tommorow saturday deadline for reserch chapters 1 & 2

Study for patho, we might have quiz....

new concept on Monday , Metabolism

under Ma'am Rodicol

study in advance gor any possible quiz

still trying to contact her

for the time but 60% sure it'll be at 9am

un lang ata please cooperate guys

thanks

Godbless us all

Tired and happy

2008-03-07T00:02:00.000-08:00

GOAL MET

Went home light hearted

happy feeling of praised

Commendation from the master

Thanks giving from the sufferer

Alleviated the pain and discomfort

Offered only love and comfort

In her eyes she hides

worries and fears aside

May God be with her

Hopefully Peace of mind will conquer

time management

2008-03-05T00:24:00.001-08:00

Finals is fast approaching.... Barely two weeks to go ......

and we have to prepare for our final exam which scares me most.

We are fourth year bound and this is the major bridge we have to cross.

My due case study which we are still working on.

Hopefully we can survive and do well in the defense.

Our speech choir which is a class effort.

We depend in each other here

and we only have less than 6 days to practice

our cooperation and focus are needed

I am really pressured as one of the leader

the class clearance is my primary assignmenet too

With all these task, everyday is a struggle.

I try to plan and foresee everything.

I sound like a broken record reminding my classmates of what to do..

Take the lead with God

I must say I'm kinda tired

but not bored

surviving

not pleading

pressure keeps me moving

which are satisfying

to see a job well done

with worries gone

God is my strength

with prayers length

I just hope I' made a difference

with good consequence

congratulations

2008-03-05T00:20:00.000-08:00

Job well done SAN PEDRO COLLEGE
for the success last December Nursing licensure Exam

4 top notchers
89% passing rate

Hopefully we could maintain
and even improve our passing rate

teacher wher are you

2008-03-02T19:22:00.001-08:00

today I arrived school only to find out our teacher is absent...
I hope she could have texted us earlier so that we were informed and would not waste our time...

fashion for less

2008-03-02T19:04:00.000-08:00

hey... im selling fashion clothes and bags

they are very cool and trendy.... and most of all cheap..

I'm gonna post the pics of the my items with price na...

just visit my friendter account... nickale_jess@yahoo.com

sick and tired of Phillipine politics

2008-03-02T18:33:00.000-08:00

I'm super sick and tired of watching phillipine news today in the television even reading the headlines or listening to short news from the radio...
2001 I was on my last year as a grader and it was January when the country was successful in the so called peoplepower to oust the president then, Joseph Estrada or Erap..... I could still remember we were on close watch with the latest news together with my parents since most of the rallys are in Manila the center or capital of the country. Vice president Gloria Arroyo replaced him and was re elected last ,may 2004 election.
Almost seven years passed and now our country is again facing another problem.....Another people power is working right now to ask The president to resign....
AS a filipino and part of this country ... I stand to let the president finish her term. I am not pro Gloria but allowing the president resign would only pose a more serious problem in the country. Besides who would best take over the president? Do you know any politician whom is corrupt free? a politician who havent received any single centavo as a donation or bribe from the private sectors or others? a politician who was never influenced by other people in decision making?
Imagine after all this riot, rallies and investigations and in case their succesful in puting the president down.... what would the next president be? what could he/she bring to the country?
Let us remember that the phillipines has luzon, Visayas and MIndanao with 7,101 islands. Manila is not Phillipines, it is the capital of the phillipine and they are about 80 million Filipino Citizens involved here.
If all the politicians will under thorough investigations, I doubt if there is any politician left clean.
I am against ccorruption, of course, but lets try to open our eyes to the reality that corruption is everywhere.

A duty became a passion

2008-02-28T08:33:00.000-08:00

We all have our individual duties… It can be numerous, heavy duties or simply a part of routine or requirement….

Today is literally called a hospital duty as a student nurse of San Pedro College. Later this afternoon, I’ll be taking care of sick people whom I don’t know…I’ll be acquainted with them later…I’ll be hearing some of their life story, listen to their problems and foresee their need.

This duty is part of my educational requirement but the care or concern I’ve shown is genuine. It is not learned from the school curriculum or taught in the books but it is innate within me. I love taking care of people… After the almost 8 hours of duty, it pays off to see relieved faces from my interventions and most of all to hear them say “Salamat or thank you”

I hope indeed I have been an angel in the sick room every after duty….

my friends love problem

2008-02-15T23:44:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day is over, I haven't make the most of the day to celebrate that day too.
Although my family and I did celebrate the love day through a small gathering , the said sumptious mocha cake which I got disappointed with, too sweet and the texture was disgusting and a videoke with magic sing.
The day was indeed memorable my sister for the first time in her college life went home early. She is said to be loveless just like me. I guess we did the right decision to celebrate the day with the people we really love and who really love us too.
We didn't have class during the said special day so the long chats with friends took place the day after the 14th....
It was unfortunate to hear a sad ending of a two year old love story. Both of them are my friends and I care for them. Betrayal, dishonesty, time constraints or should I say Time management was the said to be root of the break up.
Tears roll down and anger outburst are normal. You talk bout a bad experience, bad comment, hopeful thoughts but worried and lonesome inside.

When hurt are you still willing to fight over a love one if that love one was the root of that excruciating pain?

When to say its over and when to hold on?

when to fight and when to raise a white flag?

should you keep your love one's memoirs or throw it away?

Either way every break up is painful and difficult.